Ashes of Time

    Move can be the word of the week for me as well as most grade one students of GSCAS.Everybody have to move,out side the flat yard or to another building. I moved my house to DYC(don’t know how to say it in English) severl days ago,and spend my first night there last night.In actually fact I don’t it,but have no choice.I lile QNGY,comfortbale,convenient,clean,good service,reasonable price of electricity water and network service,enough space in dormitory,warmth in winter and coolness in summer.I fall in like with it when I first came to Beijing last spring,but now I have to say goodbye to it.There always something we can’t change,we can’t make it to our will,maybe that’s the life:something just need to experience.

Maybe I will fall in like with DYC later,I hope!

今天晚上要在大运村睡了，我研一的生活算是真正意义上结束了。这一年来真的是经历了或者经历着好多事情，不过总的说来心思没有在学习上，好像在感情方面花的精力有些过头，不过有时真的是不能自己，控制不住自己的情绪，还是感情用事。既然要搬寝室了，就要开始一种新的生活了，可能正好是一个改变的契机：宿舍离实验室比较远，应该没有机会常回去了，大部分时间在实验室。在实验室的时间虽然不是全部来学习但是真的比在宿舍效率高一百倍，主要是觉得自己在受监督，自然就有学习的动力。暑假就要开始了，虽然只有两个星期，但是应该足够休息，拿出一个星期来回家看看，剩下的一个星期还是来补补FreeBSD的东西吧。真正的工作应该在暑假以后，要做好准备，不过是知识上的还是思想上的，在以后的工作中一定不能落后，艰苦的环境才能锻炼人。
算是表表决心吧，还是要看行动！

又好几天没写日记了，主要是这两天事情比较多。前天来所里借书的时候顺便到实验室看了看，实验室做了调整已经有我们的位子了。于是当天下午就分了位子和机 器，也意味着我开始了实验室的生活和学习。昨天本来计划和支部一起去爬香山的，不过由于前一天晚上刮风下雨没睡好，精神很不好，想想又没有个包装中午吃的 东西，又怕下雨就没有去。上午来实验室坐了一会儿，中午就和颜博去办理搬家的手续，那个老师的效率挺低，直到下午四点多才看完房子。和想象的一样，大运村 的条件真得不好，首先是房子小，水电多很贵，洗澡也不是很方便，离所里也远多了。不过有个地方住已经足够了，何况以后的大部分时间都是在实验室，回宿舍也 只是睡个觉了，宿舍太安逸了反而让人恋家不能安心工作。 从大运村回来到实验室喝了点水就去东北虎了，班里的散伙饭六点开始，已经有好多人在那里打扑克了，又喝了不少还吐了，主要是出去给每个桌子敬酒喝得多，一 般每个桌子都会让你喝两杯，一杯和女生喝一杯和男生喝，回来的时候真得醉得不行了，不过好像发现自己喝醉的时候特别把持不住自己的感情，已经说好不联系还 是忍不住给她发了个消息，还是那种不冷不热的回复，后来就不知不觉睡过去了，大约三点十来分醒过来，然后就再没睡着。其实心里还是觉得很苦，但是事情已经 到了这步只能靠自己了，没有人能帮你，坚持过这一段可能自己真的会成熟许多，如果处理不好也会一事无成。 今天主要是的事情就是搬家了，上午收拾下午搬了过去，由于没电晚上还要回青年公寓睡觉。

　　昨天去理发，小姑娘对我说：你该染染头发，我问为什么，她说：你的白头发好多！我只能半开玩笑的说：都过了染头发的年纪了，那些是十七八岁的小孩的事。
不管怎么说好想记忆力真的没有从前好了，做事情也少了好多激情，不过熬夜的本事倒是见长。都说男人二十几岁是人生的一个低潮，一无所有还要独立。这是一个挑战也是一个机遇，只要比别人做的多一点自然就会有好的结果。时间真的浪费不起了，不要让时光化为白发！

花絮：

• 上午去文献情报中心找书，发现那个地方真的什么都没有，不过图书馆气氛感觉真棒，坐在窗边的桌子旁倒是有些咖啡厅的感觉，不过还是趴那睡了一个小时。
• 晚上看了个电影叫做《神魂颠倒》，没有传说中的那么好。
• 突然想吃济南的炸的麻辣串。

One year’s love with happiness and bitness came to another break,a least a literal one.We chatted on the net yesterday and made this disicion.Maybe both were tired,maybe the way should be changed,in the final analysis:there must be some change,it’s no good for either if this condition continued.She felt much press for the love I gave her according to her parlance but couldn’t gave what I really want,and she must change and adapt herself to me.She didn’t want to lose me,but didn’t want to lose herself either,what a puzzle for her!What can be done now for me is forgetting the past and waitting another beginning if possible!

Anther than sorrow and pain I feel easy now,without right and obligation,without force and burden,without right or wrong!maybe lonely maybe pain,let me face it!

　　一年的研一生活就要结束了，今天分别开了支部和班里的最后一次会议，班级就要解散了，各自回到实验室，心里的感觉倒是有些像去年毕业时候了。
看着陈丽丽做的回忆支部一年活动ｐｐｔ，配着范玮琪的《一比一》，心里泛着点点的酸楚。除了九楼东部和其实和班里其它同学并不熟，最熟的还是支部的成 员。他们都说我们是富人俱乐部，没事就出去玩，其实富人倒不是，不过出去玩的次数倒是真的不少。记得去年刚开学的时候我们就去了天安门，国家博物馆，大会 堂里听报告，那次以后大家就熟悉起来，以后开支部会的时候也有说有笑了。其实一直觉得党支部活动都是形式主义，能有什么意思，但是现在的看法变了，大家真 的能很坦诚的交流一些问题，以我们自己的角度，而不是只在那里歌功颂德。记得吕品经常在我们开始自由讨论的时候说“我们关上门说话”，没有人会说你上纲上 线。今年“保鲜”开始以后我们的活动就更多了，首先是看电影，然后是去参观科技馆，后来是看反腐展览后到玉渊潭看樱花，那次因为有些事情没有去，看着他们 照的照片还挺羡慕的。和他们在一起真的很开心，我们是一个小集体，一个大家庭。即使以后支部解散了，我相信大家还是最亲的朋友。
记住他们的名字：吕品、张西北、陈昕、陈丽丽、张婕、何庆伟、郭杨、刘俊涛、汪丹、黄佩杰、刘庆伟、于佳、黄亮、胡俊俊、包晓明、周春梅、车美儒、姜映映。（最后两位是今天刚加入的）。

    Another course was over,and its examnation was given this morning.You could choose your sentences you would interpret from that were given during the class.The first one I choose was a simple one talking about Shanghai which I had done before,but the second one was a little difficult which I made out but not good.After all two classes of small simester were over,leaving only software testing needing exam.

I phoned YY this noon when she was having lunch,there is a comfortable talk but not so long.

I have also broken the record for me:three movies one day! They were “Constantine“ ”Du xia da zhan Lasi Weijiasi ” and “Dong Cheng Xi Jiu”,not bad!

老贺三个星期前就说马上就能进实验室，不过又好长时间没有消息了。今天还是在宿舍呆着，下午闲着无聊便下了几部我猜来看，四点多才开始学习，看了几章《FreeBSD Handbook》吃完饭的时候觉得收获还蛮大的，不过晚上回来就没有心思学习了，玩了一会儿暗黑又看了两集李敖有话说。只是觉得闷，今天又是没有回音，尽管中午和晚上又给她发了两个消息，而晚上发的仅仅是问问她在哪里。不知道是我多想了，只是觉得即使再忙也应该有时间回个短信或者接个电话吧，其实现在已经不奢求她能主动给我打个电话或者发个短信了。想多了没有用，就像李敖说的有主意没办法的事情还是少做，我也觉得那样很愤青，既然不能改变现状能做的只有让自己少去想这些事情了，到了时候自然会有结果，不管怎样。应该开始忙起来了，现在好像缺的是压力，进了实验室应该会有不同吧，至少注意力应该转移了很多，像现在晓冬一样，整天忙着实验室的项目和自己的爱好，应该就没有太多时间去想一些其它的吧！希望自己能忙起来！

    There were so many fairs I did this weekend,but with pleasure!Yesterday is a wanderful day,all the four classmates had a get-together.Xiaodong came at 8:30 in the morning,and we went to listen to lecture given by a programmer from the US who had once in the a group which designed Star Craft of Blizzerd Company.but the main part of the lecture is the development of mobile games. and my audition seemed not good enough to catch up with him,the only memory of that lecture might be “star craft is designed mostly with c”.Guangjun came in the noon,after a simple lunch,we went to sing in “RedPig”.It’s really a happy time there,I sang a lot and some time only roar.Xiaodong’s voice was wanderful and we call him “spirit singer”,especially several song originally sing by Sunnan such as “redemption ” “be there or be square”,Xiaodong sang perfect! then,Chenliang a loser in love came.We went to drink after coming out the KTV.Long time no drink with them,I drunk a lot and talk a lot about loving affairs.My thought is clear-I love her and want to be with her.Though something I didn’t do well and something I didn’t understand and something I lost,I will not give up!

Having gone to swimming in the morning I went to see grandpa in the afternoon today,he is the little brother of my grandfather and stayed in Peking after the military service.He is so healthy to go dancing every day,so dose grandma who is learnning Chinese-Painting now!If I am as old and good as them I will be much satisfied!

    interpritation class has over,and a quize will be given next week.Time goes so quickly,the small simester has come to an end.

Tomorrow is Saterday,Xiaodong and Guangjun will come,and we will have a get-together,long time no see Guangjun,it’s about half a year scince the last time meeting him last winnter.We may go to KTV in the afternoon and go drinking in the evening,maybe tomorrow is a happy day!

She didn’t answer my sms today,may be busy,maybe else,it’s unessesory to think too much,and do your own bussiness!